What did I do?

Did I just make the biggest mistake in my life? I have the right intentions at heart, but I don't know if it was the right thing to do. I never meant to hurt you, I just wish you could see it from my point of view. I didn't do anything stupid to end it, but when I did end it, I feel like I hurt you the same. Nothing like this ever feels good, but in the future you will understand my reasoning. We were so good at one point... but was that just because of where we were? Was it stupid to think we could make it happen outside of that? I was scared of what I thought would happen and in the end, it did happen, but it was my fault. It hurts me sooo much to hear you hurt, but I swear there's a reason behind everything. I wish I could just turn around and say ok, forget all that, I want this, right now. My heart begs me to stop the crying, but my brain convinces me that its all for the best, that one day you will get it. I swear I wasn't making plans for me and someone else while we were still together and I promise to you (believe it or not) I don't have any plans to get with anybody else now. I just need some time to myself, some time to get my life together without having to stress over not being able to give you everything you need while were apart. I just need right now to not be a boyfriend and be YOUR FRIEND before I LOSE you completely. We all have our problems and I'll be the first to admit it. I lost this battle, but the war is far from over. I hope you realize that before you give up on me. I just really wish you could understand.

America the..... beautiful?

So after everything is said and done, George W. Bush has roughly 48 hours left in office before Barack Obama takes over. The past 8 years have been the most interesting, I have to say, or maybe it's because I have a bias. I never did like Bush, and when the previous election came around I was two months shy of being able to vote. I never liked Kerry much either, but hey, I would have voted for him to just keep Bush out of office for another 4 years, lol. When Clinton left office I was 13... when he entered office, I was 5, lol. I don't remember much about that time period, but I know that now, that he was a great president and Obama has a lot of work to do - as do we, the citizens of America. Everyone looks at this new term as if Obama is going to come into office and change everything. That after January 20th, the economy will shoot up, the war will end, we will be a united country, etc. Well, ladies and gentlemen, the change begins within! I keep seeing that damn trailer for the movie "Notorious" and dude always says, "We can change the world, but first we must change ourselves." It honestly makes the most sense. How dare we rely everything on just one man to change our future?? With the right figure head, the community can grow within itself and surpass any previously determined expectations. 

I remember when Obama won the election back in November. Everyone was so excited. Never in my life did I see sos many people unite and celebrate with people they didn't even know. It wasn't even like this after September 11, 2001. I was back at school when it happened. On my four years on campus I never saw something like that. Everyone celebrating under one cause... 1 victory, we shook the campus. Different people, from different walks of life, with different belieds, and different practices came together arm in arm and screamed "O-BA-MA!" I made my freedom count, I made my voice heard. We as a generation changed history. That night we proved that we are ready for a change... hopefully. Hopefully we are are ready for a new nation, ready to come together and bring this cuntry back to where it's supposed to be. I hope. But at a time like this, that's what we need to have, right? Hope.

Angels and Kings! Werd.

Pretty fun night all around, lol. Let's do it again!

Best movie ever, lol.

Walt Disney presents Bedtime Stories directed by Adam Shankman (director and choreographer of Hairspray) with Adam Sandler, Courtney Cox, Keri Russell, Guy Pearce, Russelll Brand, etc. A family comedy about a hotel handyman whose life changes when the lavish bedtime stories he tells his neice and nephwe start to magically come true.

Critics gave this movie two stars, but according to the users of moviefone (lol) the movie got 4. I think the nature of this movie makes people think its solely a child film, but I have to admit its more for everyone. Adam Sandler is found in another hit for the family, while the supporting cast steps it up to keep the film rolling. I have to admit it was a pleasant surprise seeing Lucy Lawless in this film. I have a lil thing for her, lol. Ever since Xena, she makes me smile, haha. 

I must say this is a movie that everyone should go see. It's really pleasing and will have you walking out of the theatre with a smile on your face. One reader on imdb said "My granddaughter, 11, picked the movie as I am generally a SdFi guy. I have to say that I enjoyed and laughed as much as she did. I didn't see anything hackeneyed or cliched moments lend itself to funny cookie cutter movies.... the movie moves at a nice brisk pace. I recommend it highly. You will not feel leaving the movie ripped off by any means, which not surprisingly happens more often than not. May you all enjoy it as we did."

Out with the old....in with the 9.

A new year.... A new me? Nahhh. Don't think so. Everyone always preaches these New Year resolutions about how the new year is a chance to fix wrongs and come out as a brand new person. Change doesn't happen overnight, and there's no way a couple shots of Patron and a New Years kiss will turn you into a completely new person for the next 365 days. 

So this year, I've decided to not have a Resolution. Partly because I never end up keeping them, and partly because I've decided that I'm happy where my life is right now. I have goals that I've set for myself for graduating college, and that's what I'm going to focus on. 

There are some relationships that have failed and prospered in 2008 and I plan on leaving all the negative back there. This past year has had a lot to deal with, and I think I stepped up quite nicely. I only expect this new year, 2009 to be even better and more prosperous than the previous one. I expect a lot of doors to open and my life to make a lot of changes for the best. 

My goals for the new year include:

• Start to take classes at BDC and become a better dancer.
  
• Get a job where I can sustain until I figure out my career.
• Move out of my folks house by the beginning of the summer.
• Start going to the gym with TK and become a gym rat with him, lol.

As for right now, that's all I can think about, but I plan on having those taken care of some time this year. Werd....I have a feeling that this is going to be a good year. 

Peace. PRiNCe CHaRMiNG